well, for the last weeks i could almost forget that i'm actually pregnant - i suppose thats ok though, i do have to pace myself for the next 7 months still!
today i just feel crappy. so tired i could tip out of my chair now and catch a snooze on the floor! and i have this urge to just cry. get all the frustration out. we still haven't heard back on whether the car will be written off or not, hubby is being shifted around from doc to doc and still no-one has done more for him that x-ray his neck and give him a variety of painpills, none of which work properly, so he's hardly sleeping.
luckily we're still in a good place with each other - with all the financial and other drama its the one thing i'm holding on to right now.
tomorrow will be better.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
pregnancy moods
ok, so following a request i have renewed my determination to blog more regularly - especially about the pregnancy. I have to say from the get-go though, if i come across as slightly psychotic and jekyll-and-hydish - please bear with me, apparently its completely normal.
for one, the cramps and pains have subsided somewhat - thank heavens for that! According to hubby's dad its not a porcupine baby, but the little devil horns that are making an early appearance. ha. ha. ha. - lets hope not!
with the cramps subsiding the nausea has picked up slightly, but what is even worse is the perpetual state of PMS! actually PMS is a holiday compared to these mood swings! One moment i'm normal, maybe slightly irritated and grumpy cos i'm tired, then suddenly the power trips, effectively cutting off ALL my communication - phone, internet - skype, facebook, gmail, - the works, and next thing i know i'm in a rage that i can hardly control. now i've gotten angry before - really really angry. but this is ridiculous. there are times when i feel i'm a hairs breadth away from losing control and bashing something to pieces. when i then desperately try to collect myself and calm down as this can't be good for the baby, i see my hands shaking and then i'm just frustrated all over again - and THAT then ends me in tears!
so i've just gotten my tears under control and my boss comes in with a cup of tea, or what he calls 'a cup of feel-better' - so sweet - and here i go again - he's barely at the door and i'm dissolved again. then the workshop downstairs starts grinding or hammering away at something again and there i am again, back at rage! and at the end of it, i'm just exhausted.
luckily i have a wonderful husband with the patience of a monk! he just chuckles at me and does all kinds of little things he knows will make me feel better. this morning he phoned me on skype and then left the skype call on while he watched a movie, home sick in bed, just so i can talk to him whenever i feel i need to. it was a wonderfully unexpected remedy. it was like lying next to him reading a book, just knowing he's there with me.
my wonderful mom and my darling doctor have however put me at ease about taking herbal calming pills, so i shall give that a try. wouldn't want this baby charging out of me like attila the hun, battlecry and axe ready!!
for one, the cramps and pains have subsided somewhat - thank heavens for that! According to hubby's dad its not a porcupine baby, but the little devil horns that are making an early appearance. ha. ha. ha. - lets hope not!
with the cramps subsiding the nausea has picked up slightly, but what is even worse is the perpetual state of PMS! actually PMS is a holiday compared to these mood swings! One moment i'm normal, maybe slightly irritated and grumpy cos i'm tired, then suddenly the power trips, effectively cutting off ALL my communication - phone, internet - skype, facebook, gmail, - the works, and next thing i know i'm in a rage that i can hardly control. now i've gotten angry before - really really angry. but this is ridiculous. there are times when i feel i'm a hairs breadth away from losing control and bashing something to pieces. when i then desperately try to collect myself and calm down as this can't be good for the baby, i see my hands shaking and then i'm just frustrated all over again - and THAT then ends me in tears!
so i've just gotten my tears under control and my boss comes in with a cup of tea, or what he calls 'a cup of feel-better' - so sweet - and here i go again - he's barely at the door and i'm dissolved again. then the workshop downstairs starts grinding or hammering away at something again and there i am again, back at rage! and at the end of it, i'm just exhausted.
luckily i have a wonderful husband with the patience of a monk! he just chuckles at me and does all kinds of little things he knows will make me feel better. this morning he phoned me on skype and then left the skype call on while he watched a movie, home sick in bed, just so i can talk to him whenever i feel i need to. it was a wonderfully unexpected remedy. it was like lying next to him reading a book, just knowing he's there with me.
my wonderful mom and my darling doctor have however put me at ease about taking herbal calming pills, so i shall give that a try. wouldn't want this baby charging out of me like attila the hun, battlecry and axe ready!!
Monday, June 6, 2011
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