i think i must have the best husband in the world! monday and tuesday i was in bed with the flu and he treated me royally - cooked for me so i'd have lunch during the day while he was at work, brought me mountains of fresh veg and fruits and made sure i took my meds.
and now that i'm better he's stuck with my flu - poor man.
for a while now i've been saying i want to move my workdesk out of the spare bedroom and also that we need new closet space to accomodate all the new baby stuff. yesterday hubby phones me up and tells me he has a surprise waiting for me at home. the curiosity almost crippled me for the rest of the day but when i came home it was worth the wait - he'd come home during the day and brought a huge closet for our bedroom, and also shifted my work desk to where i'd wanted. who would've thought i could get so excited about furniture!!! now i walk through our little home and just enjoy the newness. also with the new space in the spare bedroom / baby room its now easier to plan.
now i just need to clear out my old boxes and get rid of my accumulated cr@p! wish me luck with that!!!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
what a wonderful weekend
This past weekend was another memorable one! Saturday i had some girlfriends over, we had pizza and gossiped and looked through my new baby clothes. The one already has a 6-month-old who was the centre of attention obviously :)
I had already started shifting around in the babyroom and the little bed is now set up with a collection of stuffed animals and blankets. Also we have received so many second hand baby clothes i honestly don't know how to thank people! and really nice, good-quality clothes! My mom has been an angel - not only has she collected the clothes and sent them up, with some new items in between that she just couldn't resist in the shop, but she and my grandma also bought some winnie the pooh material and she's making us bedding and curtains for what she proudly calls her grand-bundle-of-joy!
Sunday we whent for a day trip with some friends to the dam - for the internationals thats the lake! our one friend has a new racing boat so the day was spent setting up the engine and taking us women and little girl out for spins. We made hot dogs and otherwise lazed in the shade, chatted, took lots of photos and enjoyed the day.
Another big plus was that one of the new group of friends actually works at canon and will take my camera in with her to get it cleaned - i have so far not achieved much by phoning around plus by the time i eventually get into town another month will have past. If they can get those irritating dust spots out that i haven't been able to clean out, taking photos will be a joy again! Already this was a very rewarding weekend for photos again - i'd almost forgotten how much i enjoyed it. And with the zoom lens my man got me and the appreciation of the group afterwards, i think i have rediscovered my passion :)
I had already started shifting around in the babyroom and the little bed is now set up with a collection of stuffed animals and blankets. Also we have received so many second hand baby clothes i honestly don't know how to thank people! and really nice, good-quality clothes! My mom has been an angel - not only has she collected the clothes and sent them up, with some new items in between that she just couldn't resist in the shop, but she and my grandma also bought some winnie the pooh material and she's making us bedding and curtains for what she proudly calls her grand-bundle-of-joy!
Sunday we whent for a day trip with some friends to the dam - for the internationals thats the lake! our one friend has a new racing boat so the day was spent setting up the engine and taking us women and little girl out for spins. We made hot dogs and otherwise lazed in the shade, chatted, took lots of photos and enjoyed the day.
Another big plus was that one of the new group of friends actually works at canon and will take my camera in with her to get it cleaned - i have so far not achieved much by phoning around plus by the time i eventually get into town another month will have past. If they can get those irritating dust spots out that i haven't been able to clean out, taking photos will be a joy again! Already this was a very rewarding weekend for photos again - i'd almost forgotten how much i enjoyed it. And with the zoom lens my man got me and the appreciation of the group afterwards, i think i have rediscovered my passion :)
Saturday, August 6, 2011
what tiggers do best!
Although my last post might have seemed a bit dooms-day-y i can safely assure you those moments pop up occasionally but then dissipate just as quickly.
On an up note it does sometimes feel like planning for our baby has brought my husband and me even closer!
We met up in the mall yesterday because i wanted to show him some items i'd found in the baby department of Edgars - just to show, to daydream together and enjoy one of those 'oh we can't wait for our little peanut'-moments.
We're agreed that Winnie the Pooh is among our top choice of themes for our baby. Not only is it neutral for boys and for girls, but its also a classic, beautiful and most of all innocent story.
So yesterday i happened to find a stuffed Tigger! I just had to show daddy that, he'd love it. And he did! He bought it immediately and afterwards seemed very contend strolling through the mall with an oversized stuffed Tigger in his arms.
So often lately i count my lucky stars to have a man like him to share this experience with. He will be such a wonderful father! He already loves this baby to bits and is reading up on the in's and out's of pregnancy and baby care. To such an extend that sometimes he will tell me what to eat and what is good for the baby right now and why! And even thought i then put up a show of indignation i love and admire him for that :)
I salute all the good fathers out there and sincerely take my hat off to those incredibly strong women wo've had to have children without that support!
On an up note it does sometimes feel like planning for our baby has brought my husband and me even closer!
We met up in the mall yesterday because i wanted to show him some items i'd found in the baby department of Edgars - just to show, to daydream together and enjoy one of those 'oh we can't wait for our little peanut'-moments.
We're agreed that Winnie the Pooh is among our top choice of themes for our baby. Not only is it neutral for boys and for girls, but its also a classic, beautiful and most of all innocent story.
So yesterday i happened to find a stuffed Tigger! I just had to show daddy that, he'd love it. And he did! He bought it immediately and afterwards seemed very contend strolling through the mall with an oversized stuffed Tigger in his arms.
So often lately i count my lucky stars to have a man like him to share this experience with. He will be such a wonderful father! He already loves this baby to bits and is reading up on the in's and out's of pregnancy and baby care. To such an extend that sometimes he will tell me what to eat and what is good for the baby right now and why! And even thought i then put up a show of indignation i love and admire him for that :)
I salute all the good fathers out there and sincerely take my hat off to those incredibly strong women wo've had to have children without that support!
avocados
latest pregnancy update: i'm now around 16 weeks - i should say 4 months - a friend once remarked in a very exasperated way about how pregnant women always talk about weeks and expect everyone else to calculate exactly how far that is!
Ok so i'm 4 months along now - and apparently OB1 is now the size of an average avocado - this is quite big, especially if i look down at my stomach and can hardly see anything! Also at this stage tiny bones in the baby's ears are developing which means it can now pick up our voices - which means even more effort on my part to keep my language clean!
For the last month i've not had too much to post - i still don't feel pregnant. Granted i get pains in my lower abdomen when i laugh to hard or sneeze, and my backpain has now localised to a specific point and threatens to disable me when i try to get up off a chair, but other than that i feel quite normal!
As for a baby-tummy - well. there's something there, but the only way to distinguish it from flab is that its hard and i can't suck it in anymore.
daddy is very excited and talks to the baby every now and again, i still have to get used to talking to my own flab. especially an area i spent my life disliking and hiding.
Sometimes i worry that i still feel so utterly normal. Judging by the level of broodiness i experienced by just seeing babies before, shouldn't i be tuned in to my own baby by now? Sure i love setting up the room, i love buying things for our little mystery child - whenever i can find something neutral! I also love planning how baby will fit into our life and our home, about the moments in the hospital when people come to visit... but when it comes right down to it... i'm afraid the idea of an actual baby still eludes me. I seem stuck on the idea of a baby, the idea of being a mother, of being part of that special club of women, of having finally arrived at the next logical step in my life. But what if its not at all what i imagined? what will i become through the constant possible crying, the sleepless nights, the lack of cuddle-time with my husband, the complete and utter loss of any sense of 'looks'...???
and will i be as good a mom as i hope to be? will i succeed in raising a well-balanced child? a happy child? will i be able to protect it from all the evil in the world?
Will i still be a good wife and partner? And somewhere in the midst of all this, will i still be me?
Ok so i'm 4 months along now - and apparently OB1 is now the size of an average avocado - this is quite big, especially if i look down at my stomach and can hardly see anything! Also at this stage tiny bones in the baby's ears are developing which means it can now pick up our voices - which means even more effort on my part to keep my language clean!
For the last month i've not had too much to post - i still don't feel pregnant. Granted i get pains in my lower abdomen when i laugh to hard or sneeze, and my backpain has now localised to a specific point and threatens to disable me when i try to get up off a chair, but other than that i feel quite normal!
As for a baby-tummy - well. there's something there, but the only way to distinguish it from flab is that its hard and i can't suck it in anymore.
daddy is very excited and talks to the baby every now and again, i still have to get used to talking to my own flab. especially an area i spent my life disliking and hiding.
Sometimes i worry that i still feel so utterly normal. Judging by the level of broodiness i experienced by just seeing babies before, shouldn't i be tuned in to my own baby by now? Sure i love setting up the room, i love buying things for our little mystery child - whenever i can find something neutral! I also love planning how baby will fit into our life and our home, about the moments in the hospital when people come to visit... but when it comes right down to it... i'm afraid the idea of an actual baby still eludes me. I seem stuck on the idea of a baby, the idea of being a mother, of being part of that special club of women, of having finally arrived at the next logical step in my life. But what if its not at all what i imagined? what will i become through the constant possible crying, the sleepless nights, the lack of cuddle-time with my husband, the complete and utter loss of any sense of 'looks'...???
and will i be as good a mom as i hope to be? will i succeed in raising a well-balanced child? a happy child? will i be able to protect it from all the evil in the world?
Will i still be a good wife and partner? And somewhere in the midst of all this, will i still be me?
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
ugh!
well, for the last weeks i could almost forget that i'm actually pregnant - i suppose thats ok though, i do have to pace myself for the next 7 months still!
today i just feel crappy. so tired i could tip out of my chair now and catch a snooze on the floor! and i have this urge to just cry. get all the frustration out. we still haven't heard back on whether the car will be written off or not, hubby is being shifted around from doc to doc and still no-one has done more for him that x-ray his neck and give him a variety of painpills, none of which work properly, so he's hardly sleeping.
luckily we're still in a good place with each other - with all the financial and other drama its the one thing i'm holding on to right now.
tomorrow will be better.
today i just feel crappy. so tired i could tip out of my chair now and catch a snooze on the floor! and i have this urge to just cry. get all the frustration out. we still haven't heard back on whether the car will be written off or not, hubby is being shifted around from doc to doc and still no-one has done more for him that x-ray his neck and give him a variety of painpills, none of which work properly, so he's hardly sleeping.
luckily we're still in a good place with each other - with all the financial and other drama its the one thing i'm holding on to right now.
tomorrow will be better.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
pregnancy moods
ok, so following a request i have renewed my determination to blog more regularly - especially about the pregnancy. I have to say from the get-go though, if i come across as slightly psychotic and jekyll-and-hydish - please bear with me, apparently its completely normal.
for one, the cramps and pains have subsided somewhat - thank heavens for that! According to hubby's dad its not a porcupine baby, but the little devil horns that are making an early appearance. ha. ha. ha. - lets hope not!
with the cramps subsiding the nausea has picked up slightly, but what is even worse is the perpetual state of PMS! actually PMS is a holiday compared to these mood swings! One moment i'm normal, maybe slightly irritated and grumpy cos i'm tired, then suddenly the power trips, effectively cutting off ALL my communication - phone, internet - skype, facebook, gmail, - the works, and next thing i know i'm in a rage that i can hardly control. now i've gotten angry before - really really angry. but this is ridiculous. there are times when i feel i'm a hairs breadth away from losing control and bashing something to pieces. when i then desperately try to collect myself and calm down as this can't be good for the baby, i see my hands shaking and then i'm just frustrated all over again - and THAT then ends me in tears!
so i've just gotten my tears under control and my boss comes in with a cup of tea, or what he calls 'a cup of feel-better' - so sweet - and here i go again - he's barely at the door and i'm dissolved again. then the workshop downstairs starts grinding or hammering away at something again and there i am again, back at rage! and at the end of it, i'm just exhausted.
luckily i have a wonderful husband with the patience of a monk! he just chuckles at me and does all kinds of little things he knows will make me feel better. this morning he phoned me on skype and then left the skype call on while he watched a movie, home sick in bed, just so i can talk to him whenever i feel i need to. it was a wonderfully unexpected remedy. it was like lying next to him reading a book, just knowing he's there with me.
my wonderful mom and my darling doctor have however put me at ease about taking herbal calming pills, so i shall give that a try. wouldn't want this baby charging out of me like attila the hun, battlecry and axe ready!!
for one, the cramps and pains have subsided somewhat - thank heavens for that! According to hubby's dad its not a porcupine baby, but the little devil horns that are making an early appearance. ha. ha. ha. - lets hope not!
with the cramps subsiding the nausea has picked up slightly, but what is even worse is the perpetual state of PMS! actually PMS is a holiday compared to these mood swings! One moment i'm normal, maybe slightly irritated and grumpy cos i'm tired, then suddenly the power trips, effectively cutting off ALL my communication - phone, internet - skype, facebook, gmail, - the works, and next thing i know i'm in a rage that i can hardly control. now i've gotten angry before - really really angry. but this is ridiculous. there are times when i feel i'm a hairs breadth away from losing control and bashing something to pieces. when i then desperately try to collect myself and calm down as this can't be good for the baby, i see my hands shaking and then i'm just frustrated all over again - and THAT then ends me in tears!
so i've just gotten my tears under control and my boss comes in with a cup of tea, or what he calls 'a cup of feel-better' - so sweet - and here i go again - he's barely at the door and i'm dissolved again. then the workshop downstairs starts grinding or hammering away at something again and there i am again, back at rage! and at the end of it, i'm just exhausted.
luckily i have a wonderful husband with the patience of a monk! he just chuckles at me and does all kinds of little things he knows will make me feel better. this morning he phoned me on skype and then left the skype call on while he watched a movie, home sick in bed, just so i can talk to him whenever i feel i need to. it was a wonderfully unexpected remedy. it was like lying next to him reading a book, just knowing he's there with me.
my wonderful mom and my darling doctor have however put me at ease about taking herbal calming pills, so i shall give that a try. wouldn't want this baby charging out of me like attila the hun, battlecry and axe ready!!
Monday, June 6, 2011
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